Currently reading: Self-Compassion by Kristin Neff 📚

I am trying out this self-kindness thing and have been for the last couple of weeks. I have started talking out loud to myself sometimes even, saying things that are a bit reassuring or encouraging when I’m feeling a bit of a mess. It is sort of nice.

I’m still not convinced that it will sink all the way in and help me accept myself and actually believe that I am a worthwhile person but… I dunno… it costs nothing to try?

I can sort of understand how you might be able to learn to ‘reprogramme’ yourself a bit to think that you can rely on yourself, and then that might give you a bit more confidence and stuff and things would improve from there. But there’s that assumption right at the start that you can reprogramme yourself like that, and I’m not super convinced. If thirty-something years of experience has led to the impression that I can’t trust people and that I don’t belong, it seems a bit of a stretch that a few months of work could undo all that. Like it’s a bit wishful thinking, you know?